First off, went to the Friday game USU vs BYU. The score was 31-16. We won by a lot. :) . It was amazingly fun, the only time that I've done the winning-team, losing-team chant at a football game. In the last 30 seconds there was so much good energy in the student section. When USU got the ball back and took a knee to just let the clock run out It was awesome, like something out of a Disney movie, the entire bench ran to the center of the field, then a wall of fans joined them. There were a lot of people on the field. I joined them too, It was so awesome, just a mass of people so stupidly happy that we all just jumped up and down and high-fived, and hugged for a bit and did every USU cheer their was twice and even sang "we are the champions" chorus. IT WAS EPIC!!!!!
Question of the day. . . How to be a people watcher and not creeper-ish? I watch people. I like to see how different people react in situation, how they interact with others, and how their emotions and thoughts impact them physically (body language, voice, smile time, etc) Sometimes I feel like I notice way too much. Sometimes I get overwhelmed, like when I am walking through a lot of people or am in a crowd I have to stop looking and noticing individuals or else My eyes will focus on person after person after face after movement after direction of a laugh after. . .the list goes on and on. It is probably due to my ADHD, it seems to fit.
For me it is like I am surrounded by small bright spotlights, they are really cool to look at but if I look at them they distract me and I have a hard time seeing the ground because everything is so much on my eyes and mind already, So I just have to duck my head and focus on the floor in front of me and can get to my next class or a quiet spot with less people and then I can look up and notice the world again.
anywho I ignore others when I am transitioning between classes or am around a lot of people to the point where I won't notice if a friend is 2-5 feet away from me and even waving or saying hi. This has been very frustrating at times when I had several people in high school all thinking that I would ignore them during the school day except for lunch or when I had a class with one of them. I don't do it on purpose, it just happened as a result of me not paying attend to any faces. The only problem I have other than running into people in the halls of USU is when I am in a crowded situation and am looking for someone. That is way overwhelming cause It seems like I just have an on or off switch and no fading with that 'noticing people' part of me. This Uber-person-interaction-noticing is what I believe leads a lot to my social anxiety. I am working on it, but still have stress when I am in a large group of people that know each other and have complex social interactions. It is so worth it though to be with friends and usually the stress doesn't come to anything unless It is a bad day. But this being able to notice things has helped me a lot in dealing in potentially stressful situations with people. So. . . to ignore or not to ignore, that is my dilemma.
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