Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Wedding is 53 days away
The preparations are going well. :) collecting addresses, dress fittings, done with engagement photos, Wishing it were already December. Yeah, kinda crazy, but I'm loving it. :)It is late, I will elaborate more when I can type without spellchecker getting after me.
Tuesday, August 9, 2011
Holding on...
I stumbled across this song today and it just seemed to fit how I felt today. (yes it is a new Heart Song) It is an amazing song by Cherie Call called Holding On, (I like the acoustic version) and the lyrics are amazing... so clicky-click on the link, read along, and enjoy :) (or copy and paste into a new window because it will redirect you and i haven't figured out how to fix it...)
http://grooveshark.com/s/Holding+On+acousitc+Version+/3DaKgZ?src=5
If I had to move away, if I had to pack a box today
There are some things I'd have to let go before I headed down the
interstate. My favorite dress that doesn't fit anymore, and all the papers in my
old desk drawer Bad habits and old grudges, I'd take them all to the second hand store.
But there's a list of things I'd have to take with me
No matter how long this winding road turns out to be
I'm holding on to the valentines
And letters I've read a thousand times that say
"We believe in you," and "never give up your dreams."
I'm holding on to my own backyard
I hope that I can fit it all in my car
When the whole world's letting go
I'll keep holding on
You can't keep a harvest moon, it fades away all too soon
And even the trees let go of their leaves much quicker than you'd ever
choose So many people say goodbye, I see those teardrops in their eyes
And I start to wonder how I'd live without love
And I'm glad I never have to try
Cause hardly anything lasts forever anymore
But there will always be a few things that I'm gonna keep fighting for
I'm holding on to my father's love
And my mother's faith in God above
She says "We believe in you," and "never give up your dreams."
I'm holding on to my true love's hand
And I know that he will always understand
When the whole world's letting go
I'll keep holding on
Shooting stars and red balloons
Ice cream cones and breezy Junes
I love them all, I hold them dear, but they so quickly disappear
These are the things I'll keep with me, no matter where my life will
lead me A loving word, a gentle kiss, I need nothing more than this
I'm holding on to the valentines
And letters I've read a thousand times that say
"We believe in you," and "never give up your dreams."
I'm holding on to my own backyard
I hope that I can fit it all in my car
When the whole world's letting go
I'll keep holding on
I'm holding on to my father's love
And my mother's faith in God above
She says "We believe in you," and "never give up your dreams."
I'm holding on to my true love's hand
And I know that he will always understand
When the whole world's letting go
I'll keep holding on
And there you have it. :D
http://grooveshark.com/s/Holding+On+acousitc+Version+/3DaKgZ?src=5
If I had to move away, if I had to pack a box today
There are some things I'd have to let go before I headed down the
interstate. My favorite dress that doesn't fit anymore, and all the papers in my
old desk drawer Bad habits and old grudges, I'd take them all to the second hand store.
But there's a list of things I'd have to take with me
No matter how long this winding road turns out to be
I'm holding on to the valentines
And letters I've read a thousand times that say
"We believe in you," and "never give up your dreams."
I'm holding on to my own backyard
I hope that I can fit it all in my car
When the whole world's letting go
I'll keep holding on
You can't keep a harvest moon, it fades away all too soon
And even the trees let go of their leaves much quicker than you'd ever
choose So many people say goodbye, I see those teardrops in their eyes
And I start to wonder how I'd live without love
And I'm glad I never have to try
Cause hardly anything lasts forever anymore
But there will always be a few things that I'm gonna keep fighting for
I'm holding on to my father's love
And my mother's faith in God above
She says "We believe in you," and "never give up your dreams."
I'm holding on to my true love's hand
And I know that he will always understand
When the whole world's letting go
I'll keep holding on
Shooting stars and red balloons
Ice cream cones and breezy Junes
I love them all, I hold them dear, but they so quickly disappear
These are the things I'll keep with me, no matter where my life will
lead me A loving word, a gentle kiss, I need nothing more than this
I'm holding on to the valentines
And letters I've read a thousand times that say
"We believe in you," and "never give up your dreams."
I'm holding on to my own backyard
I hope that I can fit it all in my car
When the whole world's letting go
I'll keep holding on
I'm holding on to my father's love
And my mother's faith in God above
She says "We believe in you," and "never give up your dreams."
I'm holding on to my true love's hand
And I know that he will always understand
When the whole world's letting go
I'll keep holding on
And there you have it. :D
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
It's been a summer!
I have been neglecting my blog due to getting engaged, and as my brothers would put it "finally getting a life"... but no more :)
Today I found out just how much I missed music, the simplicity of it, the challenge of learning something new, and how perfection is never reached but always sought after. I pulled out my violin and learned a new song. It is the Romantic flight theme from How To Train Your Dragon.
It was not just the enjoyment of learning to play this melody, but the excitement in changing around and playing with it. I moved it from B major, to C major, and then to G major... just for fun. :) I added trills and other ornaments as I saw fit. I got lost in playing for almost two hours... It was awesome. I love the freedom that I have with my violin. It does not get choked up, or lose its tone. But it does over time get out of tune, and I have to be diligent in tuning and retuning it. It is a lot like my life.
Sometimes there some days I go through my day-to-day life but everything seems to fall flat. I usually try to find out whats wrong with whats around me. I figure something must be wrong with the song I'm playing, and I try to fix it... Instead of just retuning. There are other times that I am out of tune and try to re-tune by myself. The only problem is that I don't have perfect (or very good at all) pitch. So I still end up being off. I am able to play a song well when I am tuned with the help of someone, or something. It sometimes works, and is easy to rely on other instruments to tune from, but this is not the safest way. The best way is to use something that is constant, something that never loses its pitch... a tuner. Luckily, we each have access to a Master musician, who perfectly knows what is right and 'in tune', as well as He knows us. There is no way we can play the song we were born to play (or be who we were intended to be) except we seek out and receive His help and guidance. He is always there for us.
(Greg Olsen's Lost and Found)
There is so much I wish I knew about music... and there is so much I wish I understood and knew about everything... but that will come with time... it is kinda funny, but, the more I learn, the less knowledgeable I feel.
Today I found out just how much I missed music, the simplicity of it, the challenge of learning something new, and how perfection is never reached but always sought after. I pulled out my violin and learned a new song. It is the Romantic flight theme from How To Train Your Dragon.
It was not just the enjoyment of learning to play this melody, but the excitement in changing around and playing with it. I moved it from B major, to C major, and then to G major... just for fun. :) I added trills and other ornaments as I saw fit. I got lost in playing for almost two hours... It was awesome. I love the freedom that I have with my violin. It does not get choked up, or lose its tone. But it does over time get out of tune, and I have to be diligent in tuning and retuning it. It is a lot like my life.
Sometimes there some days I go through my day-to-day life but everything seems to fall flat. I usually try to find out whats wrong with whats around me. I figure something must be wrong with the song I'm playing, and I try to fix it... Instead of just retuning. There are other times that I am out of tune and try to re-tune by myself. The only problem is that I don't have perfect (or very good at all) pitch. So I still end up being off. I am able to play a song well when I am tuned with the help of someone, or something. It sometimes works, and is easy to rely on other instruments to tune from, but this is not the safest way. The best way is to use something that is constant, something that never loses its pitch... a tuner. Luckily, we each have access to a Master musician, who perfectly knows what is right and 'in tune', as well as He knows us. There is no way we can play the song we were born to play (or be who we were intended to be) except we seek out and receive His help and guidance. He is always there for us.
(Greg Olsen's Lost and Found)
There is so much I wish I knew about music... and there is so much I wish I understood and knew about everything... but that will come with time... it is kinda funny, but, the more I learn, the less knowledgeable I feel.
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Once upon a time
Once Upon a Time...
seven weeks, 4 days ago she met the most amazing young man in the whole world. He made her laugh and smile all the time and would hold her when she was sad. As the princess got to know the dashing prince she realized that she wanted to be with him forever. She was troubled for a time though because she did not know if the prince loved her back. Luckily she didn't have to wait long before she knew that He loved her.
The more the princess learned about the prince, the more she loved him. A few weeks later the prince asked the princess if she would marry him and they could be together forever... She said Yes!
...there was a vertically challenged, immature, and very single princess named Carrie...
seven weeks, 4 days ago she met the most amazing young man in the whole world. He made her laugh and smile all the time and would hold her when she was sad. As the princess got to know the dashing prince she realized that she wanted to be with him forever. She was troubled for a time though because she did not know if the prince loved her back. Luckily she didn't have to wait long before she knew that He loved her.
They went on adventures together and spent much time learning about each other.
The more the princess learned about the prince, the more she loved him. A few weeks later the prince asked the princess if she would marry him and they could be together forever... She said Yes!
They are on their way to the castle to live happily (together) ever after...
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
I finally found a boat :)
Well I have stated via facebook that I felt like I was waiting for a boat at the airport, and it never came. Well a boat came from the sky and hit me over the head. His name is Christian. He is amazing and plays (this list is long, but epic) Viola, violin, banjo, mandolin, guitar, and bass guitar. He is going into the music therapy program at USU. We first met after being set up on a blind date. My cousin and a guy she met through Humans vs Zombies decided that we would get along together.
The first date started off horribly awkward. He came to the door and I was half way down the stairs before I realized that everyone else was at the top staring at me... then we hardly spoke during dinner...and all of a sudden we had the most epic conversation about music, and nerdy stuff, and mario. It was like I had found a best fried I forgot I had. He is very chivalrous, he insists on holding doors open for me. He is very very kind and is not okay with people poking fun of me.
Sometimes I think that there is no way a guy like him can exist. Someone who doesn't make fun of or belittle me, someone who I can feel comfortable around, someone who loves me for me; I don't know why, but thats the beautiful part.
So, a mission is kinda on the back burner at the moment. I knew I should have knocked on wood when I said "I will either be on a mission in a year, or have a ring on my left ring finger" yeah, haha, funny... yeah. In many ways it kinda is. In other ways it is very serious.
I find that I have no tolerance for inappropriate jokes, I have never found them very funny, but right now whenever I hear them it makes me very angry, to the point where I will just quit talking. He notices when I start to feel uncomfortable or awkward and helps me to get feeling more comfortable.
Everything in life is marvelous! The End!
The first date started off horribly awkward. He came to the door and I was half way down the stairs before I realized that everyone else was at the top staring at me... then we hardly spoke during dinner...and all of a sudden we had the most epic conversation about music, and nerdy stuff, and mario. It was like I had found a best fried I forgot I had. He is very chivalrous, he insists on holding doors open for me. He is very very kind and is not okay with people poking fun of me.
Sometimes I think that there is no way a guy like him can exist. Someone who doesn't make fun of or belittle me, someone who I can feel comfortable around, someone who loves me for me; I don't know why, but thats the beautiful part.
So, a mission is kinda on the back burner at the moment. I knew I should have knocked on wood when I said "I will either be on a mission in a year, or have a ring on my left ring finger" yeah, haha, funny... yeah. In many ways it kinda is. In other ways it is very serious.
I find that I have no tolerance for inappropriate jokes, I have never found them very funny, but right now whenever I hear them it makes me very angry, to the point where I will just quit talking. He notices when I start to feel uncomfortable or awkward and helps me to get feeling more comfortable.
Everything in life is marvelous! The End!
Thursday, April 7, 2011
The Storms of Life.
Sometimes the sun smiles down at you and the whole world is aglow; Sometimes the wind howls and the lightning crashes and fear threatens to overwhelm you; Sometimes it's just cold and wet and everything becomes a dull ache that seems to slow your mind and numb your heart...
The last ten days I have had two friends pass away.
I knew Kim since middle school. She was always smiling, always kind, and would go out of her way to be my friend. I went through a time when my group of friends had split in two and I found myself without any friends at all since I refused to choose a side. During this time Kim invited me to her birthday party, and that's when I got to know her. She was always an example to me of kindness and service. The last 2 years she battled against Leukemia. She returned to her Heavenly Father last Thursday.
Mrs. Law taught me how to play the violin. She had an incredible amount of patience with me and would always encourage me to do my best. She was my private teacher up through high school. She was also a great friend of my mother and served in the stake relief society presidency with her. She battled for a little while with a brain tumor... she returned home earlier today (Thursday).
I am not sure if I am feeling the way I should or not. I am faithful and I know that both of them are on the other side of the veil being amazing missionaries. I know that I will be able to see them again and tell them what I didn't get to while they were here. I feel guilty feeling as sad as I do. I know that there were many others who knew both of these wonderful women a lot better than me. Then I have this emptiness inside. It's like all the emotion I feel are hollow and empty most of the time, I don't feel much of anything. Usually I can't cry, its like the tears get stuck before they get to my eyes. When I do cry it seems to be only a fraction of the tears I need to shed.
The biggest relief for me has been music. I have been listening to a variety of music. From bittersweet-sad classical music, to Broadway, to Owl City, I have been able to feel less hollow because of the music.
Even when I am not 'listening' to music, I have been hearing, and writing down, melodies and songs for the last week. They are in my notebooks and on my laptop. It is really weird to have music coming out of me like this, I have never had this happen before. Its like I have to say something and the melody and words just fall into my head and go down to my fingers. I am hoping that music will help me to say and feel what I need to.
Maybe I will post some of my music stuffs... later though. It is late, but I believe that I will be able to sleep now that I have gotten some of this off my chest. Goodnight.
The last ten days I have had two friends pass away.
I knew Kim since middle school. She was always smiling, always kind, and would go out of her way to be my friend. I went through a time when my group of friends had split in two and I found myself without any friends at all since I refused to choose a side. During this time Kim invited me to her birthday party, and that's when I got to know her. She was always an example to me of kindness and service. The last 2 years she battled against Leukemia. She returned to her Heavenly Father last Thursday.
Mrs. Law taught me how to play the violin. She had an incredible amount of patience with me and would always encourage me to do my best. She was my private teacher up through high school. She was also a great friend of my mother and served in the stake relief society presidency with her. She battled for a little while with a brain tumor... she returned home earlier today (Thursday).
I am not sure if I am feeling the way I should or not. I am faithful and I know that both of them are on the other side of the veil being amazing missionaries. I know that I will be able to see them again and tell them what I didn't get to while they were here. I feel guilty feeling as sad as I do. I know that there were many others who knew both of these wonderful women a lot better than me. Then I have this emptiness inside. It's like all the emotion I feel are hollow and empty most of the time, I don't feel much of anything. Usually I can't cry, its like the tears get stuck before they get to my eyes. When I do cry it seems to be only a fraction of the tears I need to shed.
The biggest relief for me has been music. I have been listening to a variety of music. From bittersweet-sad classical music, to Broadway, to Owl City, I have been able to feel less hollow because of the music.
Even when I am not 'listening' to music, I have been hearing, and writing down, melodies and songs for the last week. They are in my notebooks and on my laptop. It is really weird to have music coming out of me like this, I have never had this happen before. Its like I have to say something and the melody and words just fall into my head and go down to my fingers. I am hoping that music will help me to say and feel what I need to.
Maybe I will post some of my music stuffs... later though. It is late, but I believe that I will be able to sleep now that I have gotten some of this off my chest. Goodnight.
I am a little human with a nerf gun...
This week I have been participating in a campus-wide game of Humans vs Zombies!!! It is an uber fun game of tag, just with Nerf guns and when you are 'it' you are a zombie. So far I have managed to survive as a human. I have been running to and from class all week. It is very good exercise. Well I am off to attempt getting to my energy class... We'll see if I make it :)
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