Music Heals my soul!

So, not necessarily the best last last few weeks or so, but it has still been okay and I have learned a lot. I have had some stresses with my English class for some unknown reason... have yet to figure out why... but it is causing massive anxiety and attacks... makes me want to growl sometimes...Grrrrrrr! but those thankfully have stopped for the last week and I have been able to feel more human again. The massive anxiety stopped when I started back up on reading the Book of Mormon. Coincidence? I think not :)

So I am getting ready for a mission officially now. I am talking with my bishop and we have made a plan. I get to start my papers in August. :D yay :D

There is something that a friend mentioned to me a while back, I probably will misquote it, but it went something like ... 'There are many roads that still go to heaven and not just one path in life you have to follow perfectly' This can be taken in a 'I need to try to be righteous and good' rather than 'I need to be perfect'. I stress a lot about the future (and other stuff) even if I don't show it. I like to hide how I am feeling. I have really been stressing as to whether I should go on a mission, or when I should go on a mission, or if I should say I am willing to serve outside the U.S.of A... The answer I have gotten back is that it doesn't matter. I will go where my Father wants me to go (over moun'n or plain or sea) I need to use the knowledge that I have been given to make choices.

I have also decided to become 'New' in the time I have before my mission. I expect this to be my time on the potters wheel. To be molded and shaped to better serve my purpose in life and become 'more' than I am. This has led to many things; more STUDY of the scriptures and writing notes. more asking for faith and repentance. more love and desire to share the gospel with others. more running (yes, running, I have found I have a great enjoyment in running over the last few weeks. I have always hated running, but I'm not complaining now). and a greater knowledge of my carnal and imperfect state and how much I am indebted to my Savior and Redeemer.

Anywho... the title of this post. "Music Heals my soul" last Sunday I was at sacrament meeting and I had been having a hard time with myself, and my many imperfections. For the closing hymn of church we sang "Oh my Father" During that song I felt such great love through the spirit. Many of my prayers and questions that I had wondered, but not prayed about, were answered. I cried during the whole song and then had to get up in front of everyone to say the closing prayer. Luckily my face wasn't too red. But it helped me to feel better about myself.

I wish to bear My testimony...

I know that Jesus Christ atoned for our sins, that even now he lives. I know that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is the true and restored gospel, the good news, on the earth today. I know that God our Heavenly Father loves me, and he loves all of his children. I testify that Prayers are heard, and that they are answered. President Monson is our Prophet, on the earth at this time to receive revelation for and guide us through these difficult times. I know that the Book of Mormon is the word of God and that living by the principle and doctrines in it lead to much happiness in life. I know that families can be together forever. I know that those we have lost, even if we never met them, will be with us if we follow the way that Christ showed us. I know that Joseph Smith was a Prophet of God. That he saw the Father and his Son Jesus Christ in the sacred grove and that he was all he said he was. I have prayed, I have felt the Spirit bear witness of the truth to my heart, and I know that he was a man of God. I end these things, solemnly in the name of Jesus Christ Amen.

'till we meet again,
Cami