Here it comes

The day fast approaches: It's like waiting for the countoff till I blast into orbit. It is taking way too long for school to start and at the same time I don't feel ready for summer to end. It is just too fun. I had a great weekend with friends and my ward camping and boating at Hyrum Dam. I even got behind the boat and tried kneeboarding. . .yeah, so not my strength. I couldn't even pull myself onto the board without it fliiping over and shooting away, eventually after what seamed like forever They dropped me off at shore with two guys to hold the board for me and then took off from that position. I would have been really emberassed, but I had so much fun for that one short glorious run of bravery for me. Then ultimate glow-in-the-dark frisbee today with more planned for later this week. I love the peeps who are in my church, they are a lot of fun and don't freak out when I colide with them because I can't see a darn thing in the dark. I am also practicing my mandolin for an upcoming performance with a friend who is an AMAZING musician.

I have amazing friends!: History: I came back from BYU-I, mad at the world, and in a dark dark place (You probably have already read this previously). I ran into Ann at church, she was in school with me in sixth grade, I knew I remebered her from somewhere and it took me the whole day to figure it out. Through her I met Faith. They each have their own stories, and I think I might know more about them than they know, but they must be the ones to tell their own secrets and stories. But their life experience and strength have Helped me through my dark time. I prayed that I would have some friends that would love me and be okay with me and my imperfections (I had and still sometimes do, have an "I need to be perfect" complex) THEY HAVE BEEN AMAZING! I still know that my relationship is not as close as it could be but it is still the best friendships I have had. I feel like I don't have to keep secret around them. This doesn't mean that they know everything about me, but if it feels right with me I consider telling them more than I have told anyone else, including my family in some cases. I still feel that I have a hard time socially. I am more concerned about those I am closest to and what they think of me, so if I do anything that is awkward, or just awkward for me, it is 100X worse because I am around them. I am still striving to be a better friend, Now I realize that being a good friend is not something that you reach for and achieve, it is something that you have to work on, like any relationship or talent.

On a side note: I am almost through 3rd nephi! I am really enjoying it.

Until later: Smile and think of someone you love and who loves you!